.........

Because of you, I lost my pride,
I lost my friends,at least, there are few nice ones remaining...
Verbally saying it is equivalent to nothing,
Why not share the pain with me together..living alone and being a solitude person...
Not like I like it nor want it..
who wants to be lonely if they are given a chance not to be lonely..
In my case, do I have the chance?Answer is obvious...
Living with it is just temporary, nothing will be solved in the short run or long run...
If you really want to learn my world, share the pain with me, or at least, experiencing it 1 fine day,and you shall know!

Loveless

Prologue
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting.


Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh.

Act III
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return.

Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely.

Act V
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice.

- Solitude -

Whether to indulge or not is not up to us,
Enduring torment from the same colony is immovable,
Living as a manikin in the colony,
Manikin is minor to the colony,
Oppressed by great mockery from the colony,
Undergoing different cycle from the mainstream,
Choosing to be or not to be is no longer applicable,
Since it is immovable, LIFE will soon be turned to ashes,
becoming recollection of the majors' in colony,
Being different is alright,
Feeling different is categorized as another tale in book,
Mayhap, minors' are considered exclusive,
Peers, peers and peers,
will only convert solitary ones to become majors.
Solitary or not,
Names will just override one another when there are surplus in people!

- * * * -

Time is near...
Mayhap, its time to make a change..
Immunity is one of remedy now..
Remedies are really hard to be obtained...
Scars are irrecoverable...
This is bad,real bad, addicted to games will lead me to further calamity..
However, life is better compared to last time..
Anyway, you can't compare an apple with an orange...
They are both different anyway...

- 02.01.2010 -

Kehidupan di dunia ini memang susah.
Teknologi telah membantu meringankan beban...
Jikalau teknologi tidak wujud, maka bumi kita akan diselamatkan.
Jika bumi kita diselamatkan, maka kehidupan kita akan susah.
Tahun 2010 adalah satu petanda yang baik bagi saya untuk menjalani satu kehidupan yang lebih selesa. Anjakan paradigma perlu dimulakan oleh saya kerana hidup kita bagaikan sebatang lilin. Hidup akan tamat jika api lilin malap. Kemalapan lilin boleh dikategorikan bagai 1) lilin habis dibakar.
2) api lilin dimalapkan kerana sesuatu benda berlaku.
Bagi saya, saya memilih kategori kedua...
Hidup saya telah dilanda dengan kekeliruan yang tidak boleh diselesaikan~