- sigh -

Great return is always accompanied by great sacrifices....
Damn, I couldn't believe that I actually studied until the point I couldn't see anything...If possible, I would not ever and ever and ever put extra burden on myself..
Anyhow, it's only 1 week and I could not imagine how much pressure I could get from that 1 week.
But thank God certainly, giving me better grade in internal certainly reduces my pressure on my finals. If I were to score moderately in internal, I think probably I would be dead by now...
I am too tired about life, not only in one aspect, but too many of them..perhaps, I use too MUCH rather than too MANY..
Could not believe I will leaving here...
Its never and I even hardly think of leaving...
However, I have to.....

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Leaving soon...
Even before leaving, my life is still stuck ...
I really want to be simple and normal. Can I?
I am really tired..
Too much of something is really not good at all..
I am drowning..
Can I don't care?
At one point, I really feel like giving up everything and go on exile...
But I will hold on, no matter what, it will be fruitful in the end I believe...

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Its just cold, dry and lonely. Even you know you have everything in life, but there's no one to share the everything in life, what's the point of obtaining that everything.
Its confusing.. What is achievement when you obtain achievement alone...I want to share my achievement...I miss those times, Its just mere numbers to me now instead of real achievement. I have nothing more to prove... I am lost...really lost..
No one can ever save me from drowning and even myself, I am not even trying to save myself...
Is this destiny?

tears~

tears....can you feel it?

Chances?

Chances...
Chances are important in life.
Chances appear every single moment.
Chances exist when we all exist.
Inevitably, chances of dying applies to everyone of us, if you understand.
Chances of surviving applies as well.
Everything is about chances. Risk and chance are similar to me.
They both are the mechanism in my life..
In basketball, you create opening before cutting through the opponent, which is also a form of chance.
What I can say is simple, when chance increases, the risk level decreases.
For example, studying can lead to higher chances of scoring in your paper.
If you don't study, risk of you failing is high. Chances and risks are correlated with one another.
However, for some people, they are weak in creating chances for themselves.
Most importantly,I am ready for anything. Ask and you shall get!

*the last sentence is not related to the blog*

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I am glad that I've been successful in concealing myself in a way.
The one they know was the actual one but they chose to know the new one, which is just an illusion.
Historical information do not really exhibit how a true person is.
Current information might be fictitious..
Only a true person knows himself best.
What if even the true person does not know himself at all?
Then God shall know...

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A puzzling puzzle is no longer a puzzle if you are willing to spend time and effort to de-puzzle it.
Life is still cold at times. Good memories do not help at all in my life. It is a total torture right now..
The world isn't so unfair after all as I see so many people supporting me.Thanks.
And for a certain person, I would thank you as well..
I will try to change..