Although there are 2 papers left, I feel disappointed and sad. Contractual duties and obligations are so important that it would determine whether the sea is calm or otherwise. Well, what I can say is do not really expect anything from people. I look forward for a life which will not be affected by any person or people.. I want my own life.. Why I have to attend classes everyday and revise regularly? This is not current obligation but this is future obligation I foresee. Seriously, I wont be doing all those sufferings and shits. I can easily pass with minimal effort. Why I struggle so hard? Its a fact that I see things differently from every angle and different perspective. I've changed to a new person for God's sake. Can you really see what type of person I am now? I guess you can't! What you know is not what you understand. You understand nothing in fact. Try and think in depth what I told you. If you can really relate them to my intention, you will definitely see my vision in life. My life has no value at all. I am working so hard for YOU! Seriously, I don't mind dying. Dying is a bliss to me. Before I could go... I've changed, but deep inside, I am still the same. Looking forward for 30-40 years where my end point will be waiting. Most people, they are so ignorant.. they know nothing... They can't see the whole picture.. They just care about their personal interest. Why must I have a share of sympathy and anger in you all? I am trying hard to understand this world but in the end, I know nothing about this world. Mentality is what I would like to emphasize. You can be a doctor,lawyer,accountant or engineer, but what's the fucking point if you have zero mentality. . .
- God, if you hear me, grant me a peaceful death where I am not liable to anything before and after my death -
