- philosophy.

Can't really deny that everyone in this world is naturally born philosopher. When they are able to think rationally/irrationally in their own way and be able to convince others, it makes them philosophers. Subjectivity bores me much and I hope I can narrow down my philosophies and listen to their philosophies more.

Still hoping for the best.

As humans have their upside and downfalls, this is actually the first time that the situation brought me to an anxious condition where it adversely affect my performance in basically everything.
Being single is definitely the best thing after suffering for such long period.
I sense light in front of me. However, there is darkening aura as well which made me anxious. I believe God will shine my path through.
Although I am reluctant to believe in Him, I somehow gave it a try... like real...

emotional.

How could I fail it? Am I really that intellectually blunt? How could I fail given second chance. I really could not accept this kind of shit man...
I never failed till this extend in my life before. This is the first time..

Do you know?

Do you really know me well?
Break the puzzle and solve again.... you are not even walking in my shoes. how could you possibly know my world?

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When I am able to look at them without hatred or vengeance, I knew that it is about time I alleviate myself to another level.

complete change

complete change, no matter what it costs, being a bad person, being the worst, I just want to change.