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Talking about life, I feel that there's hope in it already.. at least I feel better recently when certain events turned out to be in my expectation or even far greater than my expectations. I am gonna miss my friends after I leave Australia. Should I further my studies in future? I am really so tired...
Hopefully this is the last semester of me in Curtin. There should be no room for errors, otherwise my hard work will be just a waste, like 2 years? God bless me!

Immunity

Immunity is just another word for disappointment. The more disappointment you face, the higher the immunity you have, the worst part is immunity will not decrease because it is already embedded in you.
Time is passing so fast until I realized that next month I am going home already. The warm feeling is back and I am feeling happy.. Of course, there will be some nice memories that will be taken back to Malaysia. I've been living so unhealthily here and living under pressure.Nightmare haunts me every night.. Well, I think its time to say goodbye. I hope I can pass every subject that I take and I will have a savepoint or checkpoint perhaps in life...
But definitely if I am given a chance, and only a chance is given to me, I will utilize all talents I have to reap the benefits in future. I would say it will be fruitful as there will be no room for errors.

closer to the moon

Every steps I took made me feel that I am closer to the moon which is deemed to be heaven,perhaps hell since I have no confidence in God's existence.
While Ipod is injecting information that may distort the real meaning of life.
Is enhancement of every individual is really regarded as enhancement rather than degrading?
"We live life once and we have to improve ourselves everyday". Is this statement wrong? We were born with 100 and it slowly decrease till 0 would be a better idea?
Some people said "I had no choice but to follow this path, you think I am as lucky as you?". I would think that they are pure retards. By having no choice, it is a path where it narrows down uncertainties.What I mean is that who likes uncertainties? The more choices you have, the more risk you bear cause HISTORY will always haunts you. Believe me! Do you really understand how I feel?

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The end is just the beginning. Think of it, we came to this world without nothing, just with a soul and a physical vessel. As we grow older, we gain experiences, wealth,social links and these factors fundamentally determine our fear to death. When we finally realize those factors have no absolute value in life, we will lose our fear to die. But I doubt it would happen, even for me, sometimes I think I am scared of dying too but my ultimate wish is just to die without leaving any burden to anyone in this world. Too bad, I am not that selfish. If everyone can come and tell me, *GO DIE* I would just die. Don't dare me. I am not afraid of going hell. Suffering after death is just a myth. I personally don't think there will be more suffering to live. Life is just too tough and cruel.

DCBA

Shakespeare once said this world is like a stage and we all are actors in the stage..

ABCD

Reality x degree of distortions = Reality?
Yup, perhaps reality can be adjusted with distortions, you set your own reality and transmits the reality you set to others' reality. Sounds logical?
When others' perceive your reality as reality, it becomes reality and it is realistic in majority. Majority can set a group biased-reality; group-denial or rather collective denial. It is quite hard to endeavor through hard times, like what I've mentioned, *hard times*, obviously. So, group-denial is more reliable way to live on rather than self denial, at least, a group of people shared the same amount of biased-reality in them. The common thought of humans is "we live life once, why not we enjoy to the fullest". This thought is fundamental and it drives to strong denial creation. I really wish the equation above is not equal, at least, the world is still a reliable place to live in...