- Hatred -

One more thing, I hate people who judge me without knowing me.
Saddest part is, person/persons is/are not even qualified to judge me.
They just don't know where they stand.
But what can I say, ignorant people always think themselves are smart.

But anyways, they will never realise that.

To alter or not to alter?

Again, I am certain about the uncertainty that I faced so far..
Hopefully, it will be certain.

Nothing much I could do.
Complicated person always acts complicatedly in his ways.
I am an uncertain person. It is proven.
Given enough sincerity and effort,uncertainty turns to certainty.

- Teardrops on my PSP -

- From the start . -

Is this right thing to do from the start?
It is just like a never ending entangling root to me..
It kills me slowly.
Perhaps I should not think much.
Well, back to the trip.
From the trip, I've gained substantial real life experience.
Sometimes, real knowledge is not determined by how much knowledge in you, but rather how you conceal the knowledge you have.
If you're successful in concealing your knowledge, you are really a knowledgeable person.
No matter how good you are, you are just nothing to me if you............

- -

Impudent dullards are there for a reason.
How could you just degrade a person when you start a conversation?
"Are you a poly student?" , what the hell?
LoL...Maybe I was too sensitive..But, the point is...Do not underestimate a person based on his/her appearance. Ok right, maybe my fringe is a bit long, but that doesn't give you the right to utter those degrading sentence to me.
I may look like a person with no knowledge, but please mind what you're speaking when you spoke. Well, like I said, whatever comes out from a person is an indication of the person's mentality. *BAM*! here you go~!

- Entangling Root -

"Unlimited wants with limited resources" ...
I've been through hell..
When I think back, it was really a tough and arduous journey...
But the point is I finally passed that stage..
There's nothing I can't do perhaps...
Well, until today, I still can't decide..
Why can't I decide?
Coz there is no answer....

~

Consummation might seem good..

Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
nothing shall forestall my return.
If this world seeks my destruction...
... It goes with Me...

My friend,
Why would you be my friend?
My friend,
the world is too cruel to live in.
As it has been years of being my friend,
Will you leave me?
My friend,
You and destiny are combined in my story..
You forced me to the edge..
If you are really my friend..
Grant me instant suffering and my world shall fade.

When depression and hopelessness flush you to the edge,
Hopes will hold you back,
Fake hopes or real hopes,
they are still hopes,

When you know nothing eases you in life,
There will never be light although clearly there is light in front of you,
When your world is Grey in colour, you wish the Grey to be White,
At least, white gives you seven colours.

Hamlet questions "to be or not to be, that is the question",
The answer is obvious that to be is a better choice...

I can never see any hope in my life..that is the most honest statement...

~

It is correct to let go I assume..
Pictures display reality best...
One burden down...
Less qualm suffered by me...
It is a good indicator to change, at least this sounds positive..
------------------------------------------
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
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-

It's still the same no matter how hard I try..
Nothing will change..
Nothing could ease my pain...
At least...I tried..

- sigh -

Great return is always accompanied by great sacrifices....
Damn, I couldn't believe that I actually studied until the point I couldn't see anything...If possible, I would not ever and ever and ever put extra burden on myself..
Anyhow, it's only 1 week and I could not imagine how much pressure I could get from that 1 week.
But thank God certainly, giving me better grade in internal certainly reduces my pressure on my finals. If I were to score moderately in internal, I think probably I would be dead by now...
I am too tired about life, not only in one aspect, but too many of them..perhaps, I use too MUCH rather than too MANY..
Could not believe I will leaving here...
Its never and I even hardly think of leaving...
However, I have to.....

- . . . . -

Leaving soon...
Even before leaving, my life is still stuck ...
I really want to be simple and normal. Can I?
I am really tired..
Too much of something is really not good at all..
I am drowning..
Can I don't care?
At one point, I really feel like giving up everything and go on exile...
But I will hold on, no matter what, it will be fruitful in the end I believe...

.

Its just cold, dry and lonely. Even you know you have everything in life, but there's no one to share the everything in life, what's the point of obtaining that everything.
Its confusing.. What is achievement when you obtain achievement alone...I want to share my achievement...I miss those times, Its just mere numbers to me now instead of real achievement. I have nothing more to prove... I am lost...really lost..
No one can ever save me from drowning and even myself, I am not even trying to save myself...
Is this destiny?

tears~

tears....can you feel it?

Chances?

Chances...
Chances are important in life.
Chances appear every single moment.
Chances exist when we all exist.
Inevitably, chances of dying applies to everyone of us, if you understand.
Chances of surviving applies as well.
Everything is about chances. Risk and chance are similar to me.
They both are the mechanism in my life..
In basketball, you create opening before cutting through the opponent, which is also a form of chance.
What I can say is simple, when chance increases, the risk level decreases.
For example, studying can lead to higher chances of scoring in your paper.
If you don't study, risk of you failing is high. Chances and risks are correlated with one another.
However, for some people, they are weak in creating chances for themselves.
Most importantly,I am ready for anything. Ask and you shall get!

*the last sentence is not related to the blog*

~

I am glad that I've been successful in concealing myself in a way.
The one they know was the actual one but they chose to know the new one, which is just an illusion.
Historical information do not really exhibit how a true person is.
Current information might be fictitious..
Only a true person knows himself best.
What if even the true person does not know himself at all?
Then God shall know...

- -

A puzzling puzzle is no longer a puzzle if you are willing to spend time and effort to de-puzzle it.
Life is still cold at times. Good memories do not help at all in my life. It is a total torture right now..
The world isn't so unfair after all as I see so many people supporting me.Thanks.
And for a certain person, I would thank you as well..
I will try to change..

- -

goodbye my love.

- the end? -

Will this be the end?
I do not have even a lil confidence in myself. How could this be?
When I see you for even few seconds, I was so helpless. I can't do anything.I want to talk to you but I couldn't. We are so far away from each other. How could I survive for another period of time. Deep inside I am so lonely. I am drowning and I couldn't breathe. Although I can laugh and smile but there's something really missing in me. I can't figure out what is the thing that is missing in life. I waited till today and I still found no answer. I am not as cool as what I look like. I hate fakers but ME myself is one of them. I don't wanna pass the burden to others. I wish YOU can really hear my wish and please guide me through this pain.. I am trying really hard now. PLEASE...

- uncertainty -

single? available? single but not available? don't have the mood to be in a relationship or available but available in an unavailable way?
what should I do? Give up? I don't have faith in myself by what I got from the "feeding". I am scared, I am nervous, I am nothing all together. What should I do?
I sought for help from "LORD", but till now there is no reply!
If you really can light my path, I don't mind following policies.

- Value -

Value of a person is determined by the attitude but not outlook. Agreed?
Any actions that would tarnish the value would bring an effect to valued person's surroundings. How people perceive you as is equivalent to your value in other words. Value is so important and it is so hard to be determined. A person might be as quiet as he/she is but deep inside he/she has best attitude and mentality. Looking at things differently is great. Taking a step back is always safe. There might be a car on the position before you take a step back; bad analogy. Like I said, some people just would not know what value is. Like typical consumers, they see price of the goods but not value of the goods. Price is everything to them. Everyone is like a product in this world and the present society. It depends on how we market ourselves to others. For example, a rotten apple can be sold with high price when the positioning about the apple is that after consuming the apple, we can fly. The world "fly" is the value that is perceived by that person who is going to buy that apple. Today is a great day where I heard someone saying "I see thousand things!". Well, sometimes, it is better to focus on a particular thing in life rather that thousand things at a moment. Life is much more easier when we look at things one at a time, rather than 1000things at a time. Right?

- Not that simple -

Its not that simple. In real life, perfect thing or perfect dreams are unattainable. You can be the most sincere and good person. However, you still lack of something. I can be kind,helpful and altruistically stupid. Well, I still lack of the driver to hurt people as they are all very selfish. Why I am doing so? I don't really know.. I just want to see a person who smile more than a person who cries in front of me.. I can't bear to see a person who is hurt; for physical it is always alright unless the severe ones but not a mentally tortured person. There's nothing much I can comment about myself because I have not seen enough about myself.. Maybe people might think differently, but I am absolute that I don't wanna see a person in torment especially close ones.

- a better future -

Come to think of it, I really glad that I suffered for years and I can see light along my path. Although its kinda lonely and depressing, I think in the long run I will be substantially better off in this current path. We are just from different world...I tried to blend in to yours, however, different nature all together. I am glad I entered into a new world meeting different people. I am capable of achieving better than average people, that is what I strongly think. Although I can't achieve normal-ness, I am glad that I am abnormal. If there are 100 people in a sample, and 99 of them are smart and brilliant, I think I am the 1 which is stupid and naive. It took just few years to see the difference between us... and I am already seeing it now..

- . . . . (2) -

I hate it especially when you need me, you urgently find me!
I am not a fool... but I was willing to be a fool, and yet I am trying so hard not to be a fool, but the fact is I am a fool..

- . . . . -

Sad. I am very sad.
Depressed. I am very depressed.
Angry. I am very angry.
What can I do? Facing loneliness deep inside from the bottom of my heart..
I can rely on no one anymore...Its just all about myself...
Sometimes, the truth is just so real but actually it is a fake truth, I know that..
I tried to be optimistic, but if the truth is not towards the optimistic side, what's the point of being optimistic. Even if you try to best and fly to the sky, it will never happen. So why try so hard to fly? The social force is just too cruel...
I wanted to mix, but what's left behind will never be in front (unless what's left behind has legs).People try to best to be smart, I am trying even harder to be ignorant, and it just cant happen.. can you feel how I feel?

.

Really giving up already...
Every move constitutes to a different checkmate...
I really don't know what to do and who to talk to anymore..

- post modern thinking -

After so long ...
I tried so hard, but it is still the same old me, just in different direction.
Well, ignorance is not a defense in the eyes of law?Yes, I definitely agree with that.
Well, in real life, ignorance is the best defense. Harmful events arise when someone knows more than what he/she should know. So, try your best to be ignorant. Some people are just overly confident in themselves and they do things in their way. What I can say is they are living in a "correct" way. Well, "correct" means its really correct. Why suffer in life? I would rather live a life that is clouded by fake notions and thoughts. Nothing harmful will appear on my path to death. 60 years of happiness is definitely better than 60 years of torture. People work so hard to be successful. To me, I work hard just to fulfill some of the things I have to fulfill. And now, I know that my thinking is already rusty, not as dangerous as before, it is a good thing for me. Knowing less, more happiness in life..

Reality

Reality is definitely cruel.
When people need you, they seek for your help.
When you helped them with open heart, they will not care about you as soon as you helped them with their difficulties. I do not need any returns from my help; but at least, you should do what you should do to minimize my problems.
Problems arise as soon as I helped you and you just turned your head away when I am having problems after solving yours. Is this what we should do? Seriously, I am getting more bored with this world.
This is called selfishness.
Well, you put yourself and friends as top priority, but me?I am just a foolish person to help you out..I promise, this is the last time I will help you... this is getting too much... I am helpful towards some people who are willing to help themselves, but not a total leecher which did not even try to help yourself!
When you do not have the capacity to do something, please do not do!
You are doing it on others' expense!

- 13.07.2010 -

Some people really take things for granted..
You caused those shits, and yet you want people to clean up those shits you caused without putting any effort. Imagine how stupid is the person running the errand for you and you do not even contribute a single shit in the errand. If you are helping others, and others treat you like that, do you feel good? Seriously, think in depth. This is seriously annoying..this kind of attitude sucks badly....

- 14, 06. 2010 -

Although there are 2 papers left, I feel disappointed and sad. Contractual duties and obligations are so important that it would determine whether the sea is calm or otherwise. Well, what I can say is do not really expect anything from people. I look forward for a life which will not be affected by any person or people.. I want my own life.. Why I have to attend classes everyday and revise regularly? This is not current obligation but this is future obligation I foresee. Seriously, I wont be doing all those sufferings and shits. I can easily pass with minimal effort. Why I struggle so hard? Its a fact that I see things differently from every angle and different perspective. I've changed to a new person for God's sake. Can you really see what type of person I am now? I guess you can't! What you know is not what you understand. You understand nothing in fact. Try and think in depth what I told you. If you can really relate them to my intention, you will definitely see my vision in life. My life has no value at all. I am working so hard for YOU! Seriously, I don't mind dying. Dying is a bliss to me. Before I could go... I've changed, but deep inside, I am still the same. Looking forward for 30-40 years where my end point will be waiting. Most people, they are so ignorant.. they know nothing... They can't see the whole picture.. They just care about their personal interest. Why must I have a share of sympathy and anger in you all? I am trying hard to understand this world but in the end, I know nothing about this world. Mentality is what I would like to emphasize. You can be a doctor,lawyer,accountant or engineer, but what's the fucking point if you have zero mentality. . .

- God, if you hear me, grant me a peaceful death where I am not liable to anything before and after my death -

Nothing I could do to withstand the pain I endured all day long..
Some people just don't learn and they think they are very smart..It's a fact..Inevitable...
When I look back, I kinda miss those naive times where I knew nothing about this world. This world is simply too realistic.
Even when I have nothing in this world, I am sure, at least, I still have a sound mind which can function efficiently. Well,again, it's a fact that majority of people have no brains and even if they physically have it, they do not utilize it wisely. Even if you drive a 10 million dollar car, you might be one of the brainless person out on the street. Again, this is a fact..
Even if you are academically good, you can also be brainless...
I've seen a lot of them which I can't do shit to rectify them. They are just too many; simply too huge to be altered. When you have good look, again, it doesn't mean that you use your brain. The worst part of the case is where "you don't have the look and you have no brain". This is the worst case ever and you think you are damn smart..I've seen these type of people too...
5
My philosophy is simple, "brainless"(not literally) people are too many and the amount will soon spread and those who utilize their brain will soon extinct.

- 26.05.2010 -

When life offers you a piece of bread, do not counter-offer a nice croissant.
When life is expecting you to assist others in problems, in return reducing positive luck of yours, will you still help them out?
Sometimes, by reading 200 pages, it doesn't make any difference...
Even if you increase number of pages to 2000, it doesn't make any difference as well..
The moral here is to be as cruel as you can...
I've finally get those indication to return to my previous life..
bye life....

- 20.05.2010 -

What's the point of struggling to achieve when the rate of success is too low?
What's the point of getting angry while disappointment prevailed?
I've endured the path where anger and hatred were in maximum mode...
Is my destiny really that tough?
Complications are really nice...but to what extent?
haih....

- 29.03.2010 -

Year 2010 is a good one.
It is great because I can control my emotions till a certain extent and I am physically fine and undamaged. Well, I am already 21 this year, responsibilities will be more and more. Responsibilities in what sense?
Responsibilities such as not fucking around and screwing around and stay focus on my career. Bright future does not really come that easily.
By studying hard? I don't think so... Studying hard will not guarantee and place you in a bright future. Bright future to me is defined as " a healthy, happy and wealthy environment".
I can be single, I can be ill, I can be mentally sick.
That does not matter at all..as long as in my mind, I am happy, healthy and wealthy.
Wealth does not really make one person happy... Great wealth comes with great care, especially in maintaining them. If I am planning for myself, well, it will definitely be very simple.
Too bad, I am planning for two.. that will not be that simple. A person which always do unnecessary things will definitely put more burden in me.. It is good that the time to upload few hundreds of pictures in facebook to be replaced by doing something more beneficial..
Maybe, that's your nature and I can't blame you...

My world is always gloomy not because of you.. because of others, un-beneficial "impostors". Honestly, ask yourself, are they really beneficial bitching around and fucking around? If yes, I would really join the parade and march together with you all..

I am too old to start a new relationship, I am tired of lies and people, I can't manage to absorb more damage. 99% humans are fake. Real fake...
Perhaps, the world was created in this way and originally fake.

True love? Nah, that's total bullshit...I've heard it since years ago and none turned out to be real...And the current one is shaky... real shaky...It appears to be fake and real as well... My intuition can't help me because they are both equal...

- 25.03.2010 -

Life is simple,
Especially when ones reach their limits in tolerance,
Pure disappointment will prevail. Anger and hatred are no longer in the same category with disappointment.
Humans are damn selfish, actions they do are based;were based on their personal interest. I've came across fat people(literally), thin people(literally),bitches(literally) who acted based on their own interest.
It has got nothing to do with me when an event which was not related to me occurred. However, I was pulled into the drain by their fucking actions.Literally, THEIR ACTIONS.
Based on what? COLLECTIVE PERSONAL INTEREST. And sadly, the another person did not really care about my position which was affected, blindly acted in the flow of their interest.
Seriously this is saddening... Some people are seriously rubbish!
They serve no purpose in the society; adds no value in the world.Likewise, they are consuming resources without contribution..What else can they do? Their role in this world is just bitching around,literally...
Kinda disappointed recently with people on the other 1/2 of my day.

There is nothing I can really do...
They are just....fcuking nuisance...

- 17.03.2010 -

This is my last resort to express myself,
In my blog, here and finally here!

*FUCK YOU IMPOSTERS. GOD DAMNIT, SERIOUSLY DO YOU ALL NEED TO FLIRT TILL THIS EXTEND TO GET ATTENTION? FAT, THIN , UGLY, FAT FUCKS AND MANY MORE TYPES. I'VE SEEN EACH AND EVERY TYPE. REALLY MACIBAI 1. FUCKING ANNOYING SEEING THEY WAYS YOU ALL FLIRT*

I cant post it via facebook cause this is god damn impolite.
and, part of it is tht fuckers are in my list as well.
thats all! fuck it man!

- 14.03.2010 -

- Keep your hands of my girl, keep your hands off my girl -

Evidences are vague, but the intention is clear.
Collecting evidences is not a really nice and pleasant thing to do..
Evidences are somehow related to my destiny.
Is it because of the geographical differences?
Or is it I am too different from others?
I do believe that the variances between me and others are high, but based on what I've observed, this is totally bullshit.
People always contradict themselves,and those out there, you know well who you are.
Will this world turn into a FLIRTING paradise soon?
If it is, I wish I can join the parade....
I keep observing and observing, collecting data,processing information and my conclusion is....
The world will turn into a brothel soon....
Flirting era will soon be over and..and...You could figure out what is after flirting...
Please God, bring me out from this world before the next era approaches this world.
Some people think they can, but actually they damn cannot....People out there, you know best who you are....

- this is a fucking offensive post -
Even triple threat position can't do shit! Pierces through armors and breaking minds!

- 11.03.2010 -

Once upon a time, when I was still a kid or perhaps teenager, I wanted a peaceful life where: sufficient resources, complacent environment, didn't want any competition and so on..

However, I find that my thoughts changed as time passes by.
Well, this world is a competitive one.
Besides, there will never be sufficient resources.
And certainly, the environment will certainly be turbulent.e.g : even on the road, I can see bloody fools honking for nothing and their flashlights signifying nothing.

Dusty death will just be around the corner, as my life is as dusty as construction sites.

- fakeness rules , where the most honest answer is the greatest lie -

- 23.02.2010 -

Bear with it, bear with it,
I had and always have told and tell myself to bear with it..
How much can I absorb those shits in my life?
I do not believe in people seriously,
A fake smile is what I can show when inside my world is in turbulent condition.
I gave people fakeness because I believe of the high rate of fakeness in people..
There are poems advising us to be patient whatever and whenever we face difficulties,
Even when we face great danger or threatened by others, we should endure and be patient.
This is total rubbish!
I guess there will not be any poem who teaches people how to harm others' world...right?
From where they learn how to jeopardize people's world?
I cant sense REALNESS in people...

- 22.02.2010 -

Why don't you come in my world and challenge me rather than wanting me to enter your world and challenge you?
At times, if I ultimately want to compare with you all, you all are nothing,
but what's the point of comparing? And, if I really want to compare, I will ultimately outlast every single one of you?
Being modest doesn't mean that I have no intention to compare.
Come into my world and outlast me?Somehow I doubt that!
What you know about the world? What you know about my world?
Do not always think that you're superior in your world, try to enter my world and challenge me.
For people who think they are superior, I give u this, "o0o"!

- 20.02.2010 -(2)

GOD!
Can you tell me how the fuck am I supposed to eliminate those accrued doubts in me?
What can I do??
What the fuck is wrong with this world?
I wish I could flirt around without being serious in LIFE!
BUT I can't,
I can't do any shits!
Some people just do not admit what they did and accept how I felt until they experience what I experienced.
Who the fuck you think you are?
Manipulating strings around me as though I am your puppet?
By concealing the truth, you can actually ruin my world!
How only can you speak truly to me?
I've waited 2 years for truth?
I don't mind waiting for another 18 years if truth can be sought.
Do you know how important truth is?
TRUTH is equivalent to my world!
I fucking hate things that are fucking fake.
When will you stop faking?
You are not Ichigo or vaizards!
Why do you want to fake urself?

- 20.02.2010 -

At times, it is really frustrating to have a partner which do not tell you things; or rather cheating.
Well, if you did something, at least do clarify what's happening.
Not until the day when your partner finds out, you start to cover..
Lets say I go FUCK a girl and I didn't tell you, is it fine?
Even if the truth is unrevealed until the day we both die, or I die, this remains that I am a pure person, which do not cheat on you!This concept is about "by not telling is equivalent to lying".
I wish 1 day I could do the same thing as what you did to me, seriously. By DOING so, I have a strong ground to defend myself, saying " YOU DID THIS TO ME BEFORE", why should I bother telling you what I am doing!

The world is really a goner!
Where did these kind of people come from?????
Seriously this kind of attitude leads to great disaster.ESPECIALLY in RUINING my world!GOD DAMNIT!

- 19.02.2010 -

Finally, another 2 more days you are coming back to meet me.
Actually, its nature that brought me to this form of life now..
Seriously, the PSP that I bought months ago really helped me to undergo the sufferings that I faced, at least by minimizing the pain..

- 12.02.2010 -

Exam is finally over, I mean, ultimately over...
Time to relax..
Sometimes, when it is too hard to bear something,
a natural feeling of giving up sets in..
Yup, trust is important,
How good if this world is perfectly revealed,
Doubts will diminish in no time,
When information and trust are not consistent,
Trust will be distorted..
Why can't you say something....really true...
Somehow, the deviation of information is too high...
At times I really wished I could not see the information,
would rather side on the trust itself...
Even if I am blind, I can feel it, it's too obvious...
Even deeply inside acts in contrast of what the information is,
Prove yourself,
Do not wear a mask or masquerade yourself,
YOU once told me , "I am DIRECT".
Prove it ....
Why do you follow the flow?
Blending yourself with ignorant people, which ultimately deceive one another as routine.
My love towards you is ultimately pure,I can say that..
And what can love really do?
Unwise creatures are too many, as what I can see, what I felt, I believe my sense itself will not deceive me...
If you really think the cycle is suitable for you,
Go ahead,
Perhaps, my current situation now truly fits me...
When you want to fart, you fart,
When you want to eat, you eat,
When you are ignorant, try not to be...

- 06.02.2010 -

What I can do?
Few days left before my finals and I still hovering around doing nothing..
My friend in Australia finished his exam already~. LoL
But hopefully, I will pass this subject with flying colours.
Even if I don't, please grant me a pass..I mean not grade 5, grade 6 would be okay...
When I don't understand something, I would not do it even if I know the way..
Struggling hard to acquire the knowledge in last chapter, which made me want to buy an option to commit suicide.
But it's alright,
If I am able to master it, this will create a bright future to me, in this particular chapter.xD~

.........

Because of you, I lost my pride,
I lost my friends,at least, there are few nice ones remaining...
Verbally saying it is equivalent to nothing,
Why not share the pain with me together..living alone and being a solitude person...
Not like I like it nor want it..
who wants to be lonely if they are given a chance not to be lonely..
In my case, do I have the chance?Answer is obvious...
Living with it is just temporary, nothing will be solved in the short run or long run...
If you really want to learn my world, share the pain with me, or at least, experiencing it 1 fine day,and you shall know!

Loveless

Prologue
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting.


Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh.

Act III
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return.

Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely.

Act V
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice.

- Solitude -

Whether to indulge or not is not up to us,
Enduring torment from the same colony is immovable,
Living as a manikin in the colony,
Manikin is minor to the colony,
Oppressed by great mockery from the colony,
Undergoing different cycle from the mainstream,
Choosing to be or not to be is no longer applicable,
Since it is immovable, LIFE will soon be turned to ashes,
becoming recollection of the majors' in colony,
Being different is alright,
Feeling different is categorized as another tale in book,
Mayhap, minors' are considered exclusive,
Peers, peers and peers,
will only convert solitary ones to become majors.
Solitary or not,
Names will just override one another when there are surplus in people!

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Time is near...
Mayhap, its time to make a change..
Immunity is one of remedy now..
Remedies are really hard to be obtained...
Scars are irrecoverable...
This is bad,real bad, addicted to games will lead me to further calamity..
However, life is better compared to last time..
Anyway, you can't compare an apple with an orange...
They are both different anyway...

- 02.01.2010 -

Kehidupan di dunia ini memang susah.
Teknologi telah membantu meringankan beban...
Jikalau teknologi tidak wujud, maka bumi kita akan diselamatkan.
Jika bumi kita diselamatkan, maka kehidupan kita akan susah.
Tahun 2010 adalah satu petanda yang baik bagi saya untuk menjalani satu kehidupan yang lebih selesa. Anjakan paradigma perlu dimulakan oleh saya kerana hidup kita bagaikan sebatang lilin. Hidup akan tamat jika api lilin malap. Kemalapan lilin boleh dikategorikan bagai 1) lilin habis dibakar.
2) api lilin dimalapkan kerana sesuatu benda berlaku.
Bagi saya, saya memilih kategori kedua...
Hidup saya telah dilanda dengan kekeliruan yang tidak boleh diselesaikan~