- 20.11.2009 -

Wow...
That's what I can say,
Examination is over~
Throughout these few days meditating,
I found out that patience is very important in solving dispute, or even avoiding dispute. Patience is virtue in other words.
Maybe I was too tired and with my fatigued condition, I was unable to find fault.
Or even was I completely given up in finding faults?
Well, I just know, big problems arise from small problems.
Just try to solve them step by step..
I would really want to maintain in this kind of form until the day I die..
Recently, the punching machine in the arcade helped me in releasing my inner stress..
Thanks to it..
Well, looking forward for new things to do..
41 more days to my next summer school classes..

- 16.11.2009 -

How could a broken heart be cured if there is no cure or remedy?
Broken heart will always remain as it is..
Even possible that it is cured, there will still be scars.
Events that caused broken heart are too many...
Accumulated rate of broken heart will keep increasing as time in this world increases.
We can lie to the whole world and every humans in the corner of every streets. However, we can't cheat and lie to ourselves that our heart is not broken.
Occurrence means occurrence..
Scars are scattered all over my heart, even the concrete scars appeared on my body..
Even I tried to scrub away those tangible scars, they wouldn't go away.
Same applies to my heart.

- 15.11.2009 -

In two more days my exam is going to be over.
However,after watching 2012, I think that I would rather hope for the day than continue living after 2012.
Sadly, no doubts, life is full with doubts.
You dislike things about me, yet you yourself can't even realize what I dislike about you.
And yet you continue doing things, and under these circumstances, you still wanted to me to change.
I've gone through thousand miles of sufferings to reach this equilibrium..
Rather adapting, not integrating...
I hate to adapt, where it is somehow one kind of conformity.Like a subordinate to the employer, I have to do whatever he/she orders.
Isn't that good enough?
At least, think before you say something, or even before you proceed moves.
This is like a process of accumulating hatred in life..
Why I wanted to die so badly?
This is because everything is going against me...
I can tolerate your incompleteness...I just need time...
But please do not go beyond my limits and capabilities..
You should compare how I treat you and how I treated others ...
It is like sky and ground...
I feel bored, doing things which are not gaining any appreciation...
At least if you really appreciate, show it a little...
What's the point of keeping it?
I am an ordinary human, I wouldn't know what other people think.

- 10.11.2009 -

How will I look good and handsome if I am not handsome?
How will I score good grades when I have no knowledge in that subject?
How will the world be peaceful if there are no good people?
How do we define life when there is no life in someone?

Sometimes, it is really hard to achieve something without much effort and ability.
For instance, good look will never be achieved in a natural way when someone who does not look good. It is considered permanent.
Of course, some may argue, saying plastic surgery would help.
However, this is not natural. Even you look good, you will never be able to forget how you once looked like previously. That is traumatic.
Accepting casualty and unfortunate events might be stressful.
Despite of all that, we still have to face the world.
Humans define what are good looking and good grades.
Will the world reverse until this extent where people think the current ugly people are good looking in future?
To be honest, this is fucking fine with me..
Not because I am, but I wish to see a reversing world where bad people turns good.

- 07.10.2009 -

Weird things coming and passing by all the time,
I tried to adjust myself..
However, my adjustments did not do any good..
People just don't adjust.
Hence, my adjustments meant nothing..
Examination is on Monday, yet I did not do any productive revisions.
The answer to life will be solved not by answer 1+1=2 but 1+1=0.
What happened to this world?
Imagine, a lecturer which could not communicate well,perhaps, can't communicate at all is teaching Communication In Business. Seriously, is this correct?
I tried to look at this matter with the Functionalist point of view, but somehow I did not see any relation which will be tied up with the other variable or variables.
It is not like thieves and policemen.
Maybe in this way it sounds better:
"In order to create a healthy society, hatred should be in the role of creating a healthy society".
"Maybe she is the one which is generating hatred..."
If God exists, please put a full stop to the world.

- 04.11.2009 -

This blog is all about you!
First of all, FUCK YOU! Literally, FUCK YOU!
This is subjected to FATLEE!

Can you actually communicate well with students?
No doubts, it is a NO.
Are you very good in English.
No doubts, with your mediocre English.
Do you deserve respect from me?
No doubts, NO.

Does a person who is different from the rest deserve to get a different mark?
I am still wondering, are you actually qualified to mark papers and grade students' performance?
Oh man, Oh man, I've never seen any people who exasperated me until I can actually blog the shit of this particular person.

Anyway, to close the curtain, I would say
FUCK you again!