- 31.08.2009 -

Is God implying something in my dream?
Is God trying to say that I am missing something?
Yea, perhaps it is true..
It was told that balancing in life is really important..
He was portrayed as a more perfect person..In friends and relationship..
A relationship which is not considered a relationship really hurts me so much..
To admit, I really can't do shit...
Because it is too shitty..
Had to force myself to sleep at 9 pm..how pathetic..
Like is said, there is no such thing as "reliability"..even it applies on you...

- 30.08.2009 -

When it comes to the word "reliability", there is no 100% of "reliability" where the variable is humans. Besides, even machines or software will not give us 100% assurance. Previous days I experience the true meaning of "reliability". Even when it comes to close "objects", it should be noted that we should deduct at least 10% of the reliability. Condoms do not give 100% assurance as well. 99.9% is just a comfortable figure to ease humans anxiety..Thus, the gist of this short blog post is -nothing is reliable in this world-.

- 26.08.2009 -

Malaysia Independence day is coming soon.5 days from now.. However, I am not affected by it(after encoding my phrase). What can I say? Yesterday was a bad day, all things went wrong. Got mocked by my lecturer.. She didn't even listen shit.. what could she expect? Besides, "LORRY DRIVERS" again, piece of crap... no wonder they ended up being lorry drivers. To me, they are all similar.Why? Because what I see becomes what I think. I couldn't generalize, but come to think of this, 10 out of 10 samples did the same thing.. Rudeness is the word. Impoliteness caused me to hate and despise them more and even more...Seriously, an ethical course should be implemented and made compulsory for all those shits. Finally, loads of assignments are coming..actually I've done quite a number of them already.. =(

- 21.08.2009 -

Affections turned to sympathy..
Truth hurts, but the actual truth hurts even more.
Hence, in conclusion, truth and actual truth hurts even more..
I cant deny, things changed..
I can't do shit..
On the surface, it looks calm, but deep inside, its having earthquake every moment,
It's sad to be true..
Once happened, it is hard to reform,
When reformation does not occur,
There will be different outcomes,
As I know, It was like a brittle statue ...
Where I admit,partially was my fault,
Where the bond was strong, but brittle...
Part of the affections was completely turned to sympathy..
Maybe it is your nature,
I tried to adapt,but its too hard,
Consequence is still the same,
Sacrifices are made less until now,
That will ease me for the time being...

- 17.09.2009 -

Why mathematics is so difficult for me to learn?
I couldn't really understand until this moment..
Mathematics is objective as I know..My mindset is "subjectivity". In other words, there are no concrete theories, even 1+1 = 2.. How am I supposed to pass this exam? I tried very hard but yet it is not as fruitful as I thought.. Even if I fail this unit, there is not excuse for failing, where failing is just failing..Back to life, I am back to badminton, where I enjoy seeing my shots with high gradient moving forward inside the court.. I gotta buck up my gradients.xD.. Guess there are no other alternatives for nice smashes..I gotta do it the hard way..

- 15.08.2009 -

Today, lorry drivers honked and flashlighted me again.. This time was worst, I was on the left lane.. It seems that there are many idiots who don't deserve staying in this world.. But sadly, they are a function in the society,according to the functionalist view. Sad to say, a function that provides anti peacefulness to the society..During that moment, seriously, I was so frustrated that I actually cursed them..And the worst part that, they contributed as a fraction in my life. I just cant avoid them because they are all around the country. Well, on top of that, my life consists of few friends around me, yet why would someone tries to minimize my friends even my friends were all minimized by me already. A simple life is like a simple company;entity which has a goal in their existence.A company's goal is to reap profit, as much as they could. For humans, I believe, is to get as much happiness as they could. For me, nothing seems to be happy because my life is not really that easy. Can religion really help me out? I don't think so, even for Jesus and Buddha, they both could not provide me an understanding of life.. Buddhism does not make me understand why I have to tolerate with others, gain peace in life while Jesus provided me a vague concept..

- 13.08.2009 -

Well,firstly,after a year having this dog,I would introduce this dog who stays with my family. Her name is Sexy,she is a SHITzu,Well, her name is related to SHIT as well, it is SEK SI in cantonese, that's all.. Well, she is quite a nice dog, which she is very energetic,sometimes overly energetic and acts as morning alarm to the family.

Well, in relation,the first picture shows how Malaysians drive on the road.. I believe all those bastards that HONKED and FLASH LIGHTED me would end up being as the unfortunate car as shown in the picture..

- 12.08.2009 -

As usual, the tiredness which is bonded with me 24/7 since semester 2 commenced...
Nothing I could do about it..Well, I decided to spend 5 minutes to blog..
This morning was a breezy morning..A good start I assume.. Well, the breeziness made me think back of the game Final Fantasy 8 where this game gave me a breezy feeling last time.I kind of miss this game actually,*except the Fire Cavern part.. I have to wait until 10am for class.How sad it is..2 hours doing nothing in the Resource center..Recently, a girl from my college was quarantined due to H1N1..What can I conclude here? H1N1 is near.. It is a good thing for me and bad thing for others. According to my friend, H1N1 will not likely to kill a teenager. Besides, other sources educated me that H1N1 will only kill those people who are diagnosed with other sickness.. Diabetes? XD. wow..nothing much I could blog today.But the I really like nice wind that soothed me~

- T i m e -

Time does not wait for anyone in this world nor things..Time is the most selfish "thing" in the world. It does not see how pain one is..It does not stop and let one finishes his exam..it just goes on and on and on besides depreciating things,humans and ages living beings..One would never outrun the moon, yet one can never overlap the time. I saw how sad one it is when time does not wait.. But time is the only thing that I valued and value so far..Because only time can bring me to other phase of/after life..I am waiting patiently for the time being..Without time, 2012 will not be seen in life..I am waiting for the big day,which I truly hope the world would end..Time could be angel or devil in everyone's different perspective..For me, it is an angel..

- H1N1 Outbreak Vs Zombies Outbreak -

H1N1, as a prominent virus which appeared months ago where everyone was so scared they are infected by it. In contrast, the idea from the game, Resident Evil, or Biohazard where T-virus caused humans turn to zombies. Which virus would I prefer? I prefer zombies outbreak where humans lose their senses as a human.. Well, human's sense is the most dangerous weapon on earth,that is what I always think. H1N1 virus would still let humans retain their senses, but not the T-virus.

The world with 100% zombie population or 100% H1N1 patients? I would choose 100% zombie populations, where one fine day,all zombies will be diminished, the present world be safe; as I assume there would be no technological changes;technological stop. On the other hand, if 100% humans are H1N1 patients, they will still advance in researching, where they would try their best to save humans; as how noble they claimed to be.. Whereas, the earth would continue to deplete. Humans cause the earth to depreciate faster. Even if they are not the factor of earth's depreciation, they would be the catalyst of earth's depreciation...

I wish there will really be a start in zombies outbreak one day..

- 06.08.2009 -

How could I survive? How could I survive with 3 hours sleep a day..With classes and no additional sleeping hours during weekends? It brought me back to 3 years ago where I went to National Service. The morning fresh air creates a threshold to survive although there were stress and anxiety during that moment. The same concept I survived until today. Well, there is this particular place where I could get fresh air. Not every location that contains fresh air. This particular location I discovered after I paid the for the toll. And I drove fast ..This particular place provides me a sense of surviving every morning. I wish this is so gonna end soon. I am tired, extremely tired, with syllabuses and... Yea,TIRED is the word. Sleepless night, not to say 30 minutes to get me asleep, it's hours..sometimes 2 to 3 hours .. The moment of I slept was the moment I woke up because of the alarm clock. Sadly,nothing I could do, skipping classes is going to make me waste 1 year, or maybe months. I knew if I don't struggle, I am going to fail any units that I enrolled so far..Sadly, this is my destiny - My Life, My Destiny - ...But I believe, if I am able to endure for 2 more years, my life would be a complete complete! I mean as in sleeping hours, now I knew that sleeping really meant a lot to me. And the worst part is, during holidays,I did not really utilize my time sleeping. Sleeping is cool, the best friend of everyone in this world. I shall say, I don't need a true friend or "so-called" best friend, but inevitably, sleeping is my best friend...Perhaps, I am obsessed with sleeping..This is the best gift that God gave me for this year. Well, I wish I could sleep forever....like nobody's business...

- 02.08.2009 -

29 more days until Malaysia's big day..
I am looking forward for it..where I can sleep more and rest more but not waking up early and go for the congestion in the parade....
Statistics as a subject is hard.. even basic statistics could really kill me..
Why? The simplest answer is because Stats is Maths..Yesterday, I spent whole day plotting few ogives and histograms. They were extremely hard to be plotted..It is not really difficult but my brain has a bizarre notion which blocks mostly of all the absorption of maths knowledge.. I even had to memorize what to write on the bottom axis and top axis.. oh my god..
Fortunately, this challenge is extreme and quite risky.. But I believe if I put effort, I could do it.. The aim for this subject is Credit, maximally Distinction.. Honestly, I can't even smell high distinction..xD xD